now of Christmas

We wait for snow. Arctic air has settled north of us and is supposed to lower our near-freezing temperatures even more tonight. Fire in the woodstove is our hub. Warm dishwater soothes the fingers. I set Christmas plates and mugs on shelves, humming to piano-smooth carols from the stereo.

My daughter fasts, anticipating an Orthodox nativity observance in January. She leaves many items off her already-limited menu, but effectively it just makes her a gluten-free vegan. Lots of folks do that all the time. At least around this collegiate/middle-age-hippie region.

I’m on a bit of a blog fast. Slightly blocked, I think. But for my own purposes I’m writing. As always words come at their glacial rate. Still they arrive, given time and thoughtful energy.

Some days they’re pretty as snowflakes.

Other times I exist in aching despair, as I did after reading The Memory of Old Jack. Wendall Berry, a tobacco farmer my father’s age, living across the universe from my town, flawlessly describes aspects of my inner landscape. My heart opens at his words; I understand more; I’m softened to God though the Creator is never mentioned. I’m awash, in love, despondent, and grateful.

Kind of the right emotions for Christmas.

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